Well, I got my account back! Woohoo! I'm so pleased. The first thing I did the moment I signed in to my old account was take a backup copy of the entire thing, so in case anything like this happens again, I will not lose contact with anyone.

I would definitely recommend to anyone who feels their accounts have been removed wrongly, when they were not breaking any rules, to fight for their accounts to be reinstated. I'm definitely proof that it works and that Facebook listens to it's users, and I can't be happier to say this! I had always told people how much I liked Facebook, and how after my account want removed, I had pretty much lost faith in the people running it (as had my parents when they found out my account was removed, as they know what I do online and visit my websites), but thankfully, I was wrong and I'm so glad I'm wrong (as is my father and mother). There are some decent people working there. =)

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Now, I had a another thing I wanted to talk about, unrelated to the Facebook ordeal.

Have any of you ever done something called "Project 365?" This is a photo-project, where a person will take one photo every day for a year and post it online. I've always found these very interesting and have been considering trying it out. Granted, being bedridden and stuck in the same room day in and day out, for me it could end up a very boring disaster, haha! I wonder if it would even be possible for someone in my situation to do and keep interesting? In the end, however, I would primarily be doing it for myself, to look back on later although I don't know if it's very realistic of me to think I could keep that going for a year, though. Maybe in my case I could do a...hmm... project 2 months and then see where I'm at in my life at that point and if I'm able to continue it?

I'd love to hear from anyone who's done this before and how they liked it, if it was hard to do, or anything you'd like to share with me about doing it. ^_^

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This is a Recovery Buddy. I was made and given this by a very kind friend. I absolutely LOVE this little guy, he's so cute. ^_^ She's been working on a project called "Recovery Buddies" for people who are ill with eating disorders, to give them hope and a reminder that people care. I think this is such a sweet idea. She's not the only one working on the project (I'm not entirely sure how many people are working on it, although I am friends with two of them --both are absolutely amazing individuals). 

I had put my pulse oximeter on him, he was looking a bit blue-ish so I wondered if he wasn't getting enough O2.

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Hope everyone's doing as well as possible. Take care guys. <3

Hello....if anyone still comes here, haha.

I've been wanting to write on here for SO long, I really miss being on Xanga like I once was. It's taken me forever to get this post done! (I've been making this post over the course of about two months.)

I'm very sorry for being gone so long, and I'm not entirely back, either. I'm just writing to tell anyone who may not be on my facebook that I am still alive (surprisingly, haha) and that I do try to get online as much as possible (however I've not been able to do much lately). I haven't had the time or energy to get on here to write, due to my health issues (which have gotten much worse since I was last on here).

Around the time of my last post I had to leave my home to receive 24 hour care, as my health took a nosedive and for a while it looked like I was not going to be coming back, but eventually (after a little over a year, I believe) I was finally moved back home and back onto in-home hospice care, on the condition that I receive 24 hour care at home, and also on the condition that my apartment got redone with all of the medical equipment, life support systems and devices that are needed to keep me alive and kicking (otherwise I would be stuck in a facility for my remaining time, which my parents are doing everything in their power to keep from happening). Unfortunately, my energy levels are VERY low and I don't get online very often, especially compared to how often I used to be on the computer (honestly, I think the worst part of all of this, for me, is that I don't get online as much, haha!).

Currently, I'm working with some new doctors, one of whom is truly amazing, so far and we are trying to do whatever is possible to keep me comfortable and in as little pain as possible.

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Also, to any pro-anas who may happen across this entry;

I am dying because of anorexia nervosa. I'm stuck on hospice, bedridden, on life support and have multi-organ failure (along with a very long list of other health problems. If I ever get the energy, I'll end up putting a list up here) all because of my eating disorder. This is why I was offline so long, this is why I need 24 hour care, this is why my parents will lose their only daughter (only offspring), why I have no teeth, why I'm in diapers, why I have intestines outside of my body and why I am in constant pain even with high doses of narcotics. This is your future. This is also why I have never seen myself as thin -regardless of my weight-, and why I've never been happy with myself -and why I never will be. If you don't stop what you are doing (and I am saying stop instead of "recover," because 98% of pro-anas don't have eating disorders to recover from, and putting them in an eating disorder treatment program doesn't do anyone any good and just wastes beds that could be given to people who need them - that being said, I still feel they need help, but just not for an eating disorder), you'll end up in my situation. There is absolutely -NOTHING- desirable about having/emulating/feigning an eating disorder.

To anyone with a genuine eating disorder;

Please seek out help while you still can. Staying like this will only put you in a coffin (after suffering horribly) and destroy those who care about you. You -don't- want to end up terminally ill and stuck living your final days out in extreme pain because of an eating disorder that you could have gotten help for. Please get help before it's too late and you end up in my situation, or worse. You deserve to enjoy your life and feel comfortable in your own skin.

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For those who wish to stay in contact with me (as it could be quite a long time before I return here), the only account I'm able to spend time on anymore is my Facebook. If you wish to add me, please send me a message telling me; who you are, if we know each other from somewhere (tell me how we know each other), why you'd like to add me and also please tell me a little about yourself. (By the way, I don't add pro-anas, or anyone who supports them. I prefer not to aid people in killing themselves, thank you.) Keep in mind, however, that I can't get online every day anymore, and I may take a while to answer.

Anyway, I'm on a time clock, as I'm about to pass out again, but I wanted to sign in here to tell anyone out there who may still remember me that I'm actually still alive --however, I just can't get online as much, anymore. Sorry about that. I -will- try to get online as much as I can, though.

Take care, everyone.<3